He Brought the FUNK to the Dome

On our feet

Rocking from side to side.

Feel good music blasting through our left and right ear drum.

Catching beats,

reminiscing about each memory the song took us back to.

Time stood still.

From face to face 

just happiness and love spread

throughout the Super Dome

and it was like without warning he was exiting.

Us, the whole crowd not ready for his departure started to hum.

It was like some unseen choir director had us on cue in unison humming Purple Rain.

We called him back not with our voices but with his music.

He heard us and came back out to bring more FUNK. 

His music is timeless. His music will always bring him back to us. 

#EssenceFest2014

Happy National Haiku Poetry Day- April 17th

I wrote several haikus today to celebrate National Haiku Day. Enjoy! I challenge you to pen some haikus.
#1
Fears alter people
Taking the less risky path
to avoid what ifs

#2
She was his true love
Stimulated her
mind and her heart first

#3

Flows through my body
reacting to each target

removing all pain

Vulnerability

Tomorrow is the beginning of National Poetry Writing Month. The challenge is to write a poem a day for all 30 days in April. Anyone up for the challenge? I will be writing daily and I will be posting some of my poems here on the blog. Below is me oiling up my poetic gears. Each time I pick up a pen to write it always feels like something takes control.

Vulnerability
Letting you see the tears that flow from a place of shame and hurt

Vulnerability

Drawing closer to you with each thought and confessing that your well being and bringing you joy makes my world seem more than just all right 

Vulnerability 

Admitting when I'm wrong even when I'd convinced myself that I am never wrong 

Vulnerability 

Allowing you to be there next to me in the moments and places in which I don't even want to be there. 

Vulnerability 

Uncovering the growing pains of learning more about myself

Vulnerability 

Releasing the urge to always be in control and planned

Vulnerability 

Trusting to share my dreams and aspirations 

Vulnerability 

Giving my time and energy 

Vulnerability 

Exposing myself over and over to the possibilities of being embraced or rejected. 

Vulnerability 

Swallowing the mouthful of what point I wanted to make even when no point needed to be made.

Vulnerability 

Accepting help and advice and not just depending on myself

Vulnerability 

Saying a thing in which could make you seem brilliant or completely stupid but saying it anyway

Vulnerability 

J Renee

Foodie Friday | Gluten Free Shrimp Alfredo

When I restricted my diet to gluten free foods, I thought I would never be able to safely consume pasta again. The gluten free pasta looks like pasta and tastes like pasta, but it's made of corn and rice. I'm thankful for companies who have become more aware of dietary needs. I've been able to get back to my pasta dishes. Check out my Gluten Free Pinterest Board for more GF foodie ideas.


One evening I had been snacking and had waited quite late to start cooking something. This meal was cooked and served within 30 minutes and that includes the prep time. It was a super quick and easy recipe to make. Enjoy! Let me know below what you like to put in your pasta Alfredo dishes.

Gluten Free Shrimp Alfredo

This recipe was made just for me. I was able to get three servings.
Ingredients:

• Barilla GF Pasta (2 cups)
• Orange pepper (1/8 cup)
• Carrots (1/4 cup)
• Frozen Shrimp (20 shrimp)
• Private Selection Alfredo sauce ( I love all things Private Selection) (1 1/2 cups)
• Broccoli (1/2 cup)
• Black Pepper (tsp)
• Salt (tsp)
• Fresh chopped garlic (two cloves)
• Olive oil (6 tbsp)

Directions:

*The first three steps are done simultaneously
1. Bring two cups of water to a boil and add pasta. Let cook for 12 minutes. Add salt.
2. Heat a skillet with olive oil (enough to cover the bottom). Add thawed shrimp, chopped garlic, carrots.
3. Boil broccoli in a little water for 6 minutes and drain water.
4. Stir the pasta occasionally. After ten minutes rinse and drain water. Sit to the side.
5. Brown shrimp on both sides. Add broccoli to skillet with the shrimp.
6. Mix the ingredients in the skillet with the pasta. Add 1 1/2 cups of Alfredo sauce.
7. Let simmer for 5 minutes over low heat covered with lid.

Comment below with what ingredients you like to include in your pasta Alfredo. Also let me know if you have any questions.
#FoodieFriday

Foodie Friday | Chicken Salad

I have been making chicken salad for a while, but I always switch it up a bit to try different taste and it's also based on what ingredients I have at home. I rarely plan out making chicken salad. What usually happens is I have left overs and chicken salad evolves from the leftovers.
Check out my Gluten Free Pinterest Board for more GF foodie ideas.


The chicken salad can serve as a lunch meal or as just a snack. It can be prepared in less than 15 minutes and that includes the prep time. It was a super quick and easy recipe to make. Enjoy! Let me know below what you like to put in your chicken salad dishes.


Gluten Free Chicken Salad

This recipe was made just for me. I was able to get 2 servings.

Ingredients:

• Previously cooked chicken breast (1 cup)
• Craisins (1/8 cup)
• Chopped onions (1/8 cup)
• Chopped Pecans (1/8 cup)
• Black Pepper (tsp)
• Fresh chopped celery (1/8 cup)
• Whipped Cream Cheese (2 tbsp)
• Turmeric (tsp)
• Mayonnaise (3 tbsp)
• Honey (optional drizzle)

Directions:

1. Chop chicken breast
2. Mix in pepper, turmeric, celery, onions, pecans, and Craisins with the chicken.
2. Mix in cream cheese.
3. Mix in mayonnaise.
4. Let sit in the refrigerator and cool.
* I added a little drizzle of honey to the last mixing.


Comment below with what ingredients you like to include in your chicken salad. Also let me know if you have any questions.
#FoodieFriday

Wet Polish Wednesday

Welcome to the second segment of Wet Polish Wednesday! Tune in on Wednesdays to see what nail polish and nail art I am rocking. All designs are done by me. I find inspirations on Pinterest, IG, and any other ideas I see.

This week I decided to redo a design I had done a few years ago. I love polka dots and I love coloring just the tips of my nails. I combined both of those loves into the nail polish design. Check out my IG page as well as my nail Pinterest board for other nail art and inspiration. #WetPolishWednesdays

I used a homemade dotting tool to do the white polka dots. Comment below if you want to know how I made it.

L.A. Colors Art Deco (black)
L.A. Colors Art Deco (yellow)
Kiss Brush on Nail Art Paint (silver)
L.A. Colors Color Craze (black)
Julep Oxygen clear base coat
Sally Hansen Advanced Hard as Nails (white)

Leave a comment below and let me know your thoughts about the nail polish or if you have any questions.

Wet Polish Wednesdays

Welcome to the first segment of Wet Polish Wednesday! Tune in on Wednesdays to see what nail polish and nail art I am rocking. All designs are done by me. I find inspirations on Pinterest, IG, and any other ideas I see.

I love playing in polish. To quench my love for beautiful nails, I subscribed to the Julep beauty box. I have enjoyed receiving my box of goodies each month. Today's #WetPolishWednesday features polish that came from my Julep box. The Julep polish is high quality. I wore the polish for about two weeks and it was still looking good. Check out my IG page as well as my nail Pinterest board for other nail art and inspiration.

All products are from my Julep box.
Julep Kirby Bombshell
Julep Sera Bombshell
Julep Oxygen clear base coat

Wet Polish Wednesday Tip: Massage oil into your cuticles daily in order to keep the skin around your nail soft and to avoid splitting skin or hard skin. I notice a big difference when I miss massaging my cuticles with oil for over a week.

Leave a comment below and let me know your thoughts about the nail polish or if you have any questions.

Quinoa, Beans, and Chicken | #FoodieFriday

I tend to cook a large amount of quinoa and I add it to different recipes throughout the week. I made this combination spare of the moment. It was just as delicious as the previous times I've mixed in quinoa. There are multiple steps to this recipe but it's still quick and easy. I was done and eating in less than 30 minutes since the quinoa was already cooked.

Ingredients:
1/4 cup of Cooked Quinoa
1 tbsp Olive oil
1 tsp of each Seasoning (black pepper, salt, turmeric, garlic)
1 tbsp Yellow Peppers
1/4 cup cooked Black beans
1/2 Avocado
1 tbsp shredded cheese
1/4 cup precooked Grilled chicken
Onion
Spinach
Serving size: 2


Step by Step:
Cooking quinoa is very simple. Measure out the amount you want and add quinoa to a pot of water.  1 cup of water to 1/2 cup of quinoa. Once the water starts to boil, turn off the heat and cover the pot. It will be read in 10-15 minutes (water will be absorbed by the quinoa)
1. Add olive oil to a skillet and sautée onions, peppers, and spinach.
2. Add in skillet frozen grilled chicken. Chop into chunks as it cooks.
3. Add in cooked quinoa and add seasonings
4. Place skillet ingredients on a plate. Top with cooked black beans. Cover with shredded cheese and diced avocado.

Enjoy!

Overnight Quinoa Breakfast Mix | #FoodieFriday

I recently started eating quinoa. I have found that it can be added to many meals and in different ways. It has a lot of benefits. It's a protein that has fiber, calcium, and iron. For those of us that have difficulty processing grains, quinoa is a good alternative. Quinoa is considered a seed. It can be used in many of the same ways rice is used. An added bonus for me is that it's gluten -free. Enjoy!

Ingredients:
1/2 cup Frozen peaches (or fruit of your choice)
5 tbsp Greek yogurt
1 tsp Cinnamon
1/3 cup Cooked Quinoa
1 tbsp Raisins
1 tbsp Almonds
1 tbsp Honey
 Serving size: 1

Step by Step:
1. Place all ingredients into a container and mix together.
2. Allow the mixture to sit in a sealed container in the refrigerator over night.

Homemade Strawberry Ice Cream | #FoodieFriday

I get a sweet tooth sometimes and I am always looking for ways to satisfy the sugar craving but with a healthier approach. I can eat this homemade ice cream guilt free.

This recipe is like ice cream but it doesn't contain ice and it doesn't contain the usual things listed on store bought ice cream. All you need is a blender and the ingredients. The main ingredient is a frozen banana. As a way to prep I place my bananas in bags and place in the freezer. Below is the recipe and ingredients for homemade strawberry ice cream also known as strawberry nana ice cream. Enjoy!

Ingredients:
1 frozen banana
1/4 cups Coconut milk (May need more or less)
5-8 Strawberries (add a fruit of your choice)
Whip cream (for topping)


Step by Step:
1. Rinse strawberries, cut in half, put into blender.
2. Break frozen banana in half and  put into blender.
3. Pour coconut milk into blender.
4. Blend together
5. Place in a bowl and top with whip cream, almonds, chopped strawberries

*Add liquid sparingly so that you keep the ice cream like consistency.
Serving size: 1

NaPoWriMo Day#11 | I Allowed It

NaPoWriMo is almost to the middle of the month. I'm excited to still accept the challenge each day to pen a poem. I think it has awakened my creativity. I hope that even after the thirty days are over that I will still continue to pen a poem in inspiration and out of inspiration.

I have been writing the poems on notebook paper or typing in my phone. I decided that I'm not going to post each poem and I will not be posting daily. This was the poem from day 11. Let me know in the comments what you think about the poem. If you're participating in the NaPoWriMo or if you write poetry let me know so I can check it out.

-Happy Writing!


I Allowed It

I allowed my imagination to run away
with my thoughts again.
It packed its bags and
ran out the back door late at night
when I didn't notice.
I was unaware of it for so long
that in the meantime
I started to believe those things
that actions proved weren't true.
I started to overlook things because of the words I heard playing over
and over in my mind.
I couldn't distinguish between my
desires and those desires imposed upon
and expected of me.
I can't take back the choices I made
since my imagination ran away.
It's not to blame;
I allowed it to happen.

Poetry form: Free verse
Topic: DayDreaming/Imagination
Word Count: 106
Literary Technique: Personification

© 2014 Jamie Dunlap

Charm for Good Hugs | #NaPoWriMo Day #3

One poem two versions...

I checked out the #NaPoWriMo website today for a topic to write today's poem. The topic is a Charm poem. This is a new form me. So below is my attempt to create one. It's a poem that has a recipe/nursery rhyme form. Enjoy!

Charm for Good Hugs Version 1

Lean forward
Reach around toward
Tuck your arms
Firmly rest your forearms
press each finger in to the soft
Rotate hand oft
Inhale his scent
Exhale in content
Bury your face
Pattern your ear to track his heart pace.

© 2014 by Jamie Dunlap

Word Count: 39

Charm for Good Hugs Version 2

If you see him and you want him, lean forward.
Reach around toward
Tuck your arms
Firmly rest your forearms

If you care and you show it
Press each finger in to the soft
Rotate hands oft
Inhale his scent
Exhale in content

If you love him and you know it
Bury your face
Because that will surely show a trace
If you love him and you know it
Track his heart pace.

© 2014 by Jamie Dunlap

Poetry Form: Charm
Topic: Hugs
Word Count: 79

Can you guess what nursery rhyme I used?

That Love That Gets You | NaPoWriMo Day #2

I get inspiration at the most random times. Last night I went to a midweek live concert at a local lounge here in the city. The opening acts had just finished gracing the stage. In between the opening acts and the headline, I had typed a whole poem on my spring pad app. Just like that day 2 was complete at about 9 something at night. Without further delay, below is what sprouted from my mind. It's in no way finished. I didn't type it on the blog yesterday, now that I'm reading back over it to type it now, I find there are more words I want to add and even some words I want to modify. I'm loving that this #NaPoWriMo is off to a spectacular start.

In true dual purpose, I am also submitting this piece as my first post in the Blog Behind the Look #CollabThursday #BloggersCollaboration.  Enjoy!

That Love That Got You | NaPoWriMo Day #2

Sitting at a small square shaped table
in the back corner of a cafe
Minding my own business until
I catch in my peripheral
a man and a woman in their twenties.
It is something about how they are looking at each other
that draws me to them.

Her left hand wrapped around his right arm
and her head delicately gracing his shoulder.
She's smiling.
He has this look of satisfaction.

You wouldn't think this is the scene at a lunch table but they
remain locked in arms
and I can tell that their love is new
That love that  gets you waking up in the morning
thinking about him.
That love that gets you sending pictures and text all day.
That love that makes you feel all tingly
just by the sound of his name.
That love that gets you smiling just by seeing his name
pop up on the phone dash.
That love that gets you replaying the last time you were together.
That love that gets you thinking about the next time you will see him.
That love that gets you wanting to hold his hands, his attention, and his lips.
That love that gets you on the phone for hours
sometimes just listening to background sounds.
That love that gets you daydreaming
about his last name right after your first.

I watch them

I admire them for how
free
innocent
new
their love is
But I can tell that they haven't weathered the test of time
and that
maybe
if
too strong a wind
or a storm might knock out
all that love built between them
if it came too soon.

A few minutes later, I spot another couple
This time I see that the lady's left ring finger is occupied.
She's not sitting next to him but across from him.
She's looking at him directly in his eyes.
They aren't saying anything, but they are saying so much
She doesn't have a smile on her lips but her eyes
are soft and joyous

Their interaction tells the story of love that has weathered through experiences.
They look like they have taken a couple of knock downs but refused to stay down.
Their war wounds have fortified their love and their genuine desire for each other.
They got that love that is always forgiving.
That love that's always supporting.
That love that's committed to being there
even when it's difficult.
That love that has them holding each other
physically
mentally
emotionally
That love that has them holding each other's heart.
That love that keeps them coming back home day after day to a family that needs each other.
A love that created a family.
A love that has taken part in uplifting each other and growing together.
They got that love that lasts.

© 2014 by Jamie Dunlap

Poetry Form: Free Verse
Topic: Love
Word Count: 467

Use your words and let me know what you think about the poem. What lines are your favorite? Any questions about the message? What do you notice? Let's dialogue!

Check out the other blogs that are participating in the Blogger Collaboration Challenge.


   

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"It Was One of Those Awkward Moments | #NaPoWriMo Day 1

The first poem was written while I was covering a duty at work today. Like all my poems, I start with an idea and it usually flows from there. I didn't spend much time editing, so it was a quick write. It was penned quickly. Enjoy!


It was one of those awkward moments where
you don't know
what to do
what to say
or
where to look
All I could do was swing my arms and
occasionally shift my weight from my left foot to my right
It was me against them
Them against me
I wasn't keeping score
But it felt like I was winning
in this showmanship of awkwardness
Shooting my eyes to the left to try to think of something legit to say
Gnawing on the left inner part of my lip
Anticipating something--anything to break this episode.

Now for the master move.
Double the points.
I effortlessly grabbed my left wrist with my right hand.

© 2014 by Jamie Dunlap

Poetry Form: Free Verse
Topic: Awkwardness
Word Count: 113

Accept the Challenge and Spit Some Verses #NaPoWriMo

National Poetry Writing Month #NaPoWriMo kick starts in two hours and 55 minutes! I'm quite excited. I am challenging myself. I am determined to write at least one poem for each day in April. The pressure is on! No backing out now. I will be posting the poems here on the blog. Stay tuned for my verses! If you plan to join me, let me know so that I can check out your verses as well. :)

-Love, Life, and Verses

No Fail Chicken Muffins (Gluten-Free) #FoodieFriday

I am always looking for a good healthy protein snack. I lucked up when I found this idea while browsing Instagram. Mankofit posted a recipe and I crafted it to my liking. Below is the recipe for how I make this delicious snack. It can be eaten as a breakfast snack, lunch snack, or dinner snack.

If you decide to try it or if you put your own spin to it let me know in the comments. I think that's the beauty of cooking, adding your own flare to the recipe.

You can add, substitute, or change almost any of the ingredients. It's a no fail recipe. It's bound to be good! 



Ingredients:
*optional ingredients
2 lbs Ground chicken (or turkey)
2 large eggs
2 tsp of Salt
2 tsp of Pepper
* 1 Garlic clove
* 1/3 cup of Onion
* 1/2 stalk of Celery
* Grape Tomatoes 
* 4 Mini Red/yellow/orange peppers
* 1/3 cup of Spinach
* 2 tsp of Turmeric
* 3 tbs of Honey mustard

Tools/Utensils:
Food processor
Knife/Fork/spoon
Big bowl
Cupcake parchment cups
Cupcake/muffin pan

Step by Step:
*Preheat oven to 400 degrees
1. Use a food processor to mix the following: celery, onions, spinach, garlic cloves, peppers
2. Open the ground chicken and put into a big bowl.
3. Add to the bowl the chopped ingredients from the food processor.
4. Mix everything (chicken and veggies) together.
5. Add the salt, pepper, turmeric, and honey mustard.
6. Mix in two large eggs.
7. Scoop the mixed ingredients into the muffin pan.
8. Bake chicken muffins for 20-25 minutes at 400 degrees.

Enjoy!

#FoodieFriday

Avocado Popsicles | Foodie Friday

First and foremost, I love avocados. I discovered their smooth goodness about three years ago. I regularly ate lunch with one of my co-workers and she would have an avocado with every meal. At that time, I couldn't understand her excitement in eating the green blob. Just observing her motivated me to give avocados a try. I tried to eat it by itself. I barely ate any. Then I tried again, but this time more successfully. I loved how the avocado tasted on taco salad. I slowly progressed from there to consuming avocado by itself and mixed in with several different dishes.

After browsing Pinterest months ago, I discovered that avocado could be prepared as a dessert. Specifically it could be made into a popsicle. I had tasted avocado hundreds of times at this point and I couldn't imagine how this vegetable could be used in a dessert or how it could be considered sweet. I stalked posts to find a recipe for the avocado popsicle. I finally found one and I tweaked it to meet my taste buds.

As we welcome in Spring and it's cool breeze, prepare the avocado popsicle for you and your family as a cool treat in the middle of the day or to end your day.

Let me know in the comment section if you plan to try this recipe.

This recipe makes 4 popsicles

Ingredients:
2 Ripe avocado
1/3 cup of Brown sugar or sweetener of your choice
1 Lime
1/2 cup of Water

Tools:
Popsicle containers, bowl, spoon, food processor, measuring cups, knife


Step by Step
1. Boil 1/2 cup of water and mix in the 1/2 cup of brown sugar.
2. Cut the avocados and scoop out the meat into the food processor.
3. Squeeze lime over the avocado.
4. Pour the brown sugar mixture into the food processor.
5. Blend all ingredients together until a smooth consistency.
6. Pour the mixture into the popsicle containers.
7. Keep in the freezer for at least 8 hours.

Run warm water over the outside of the container and it will loosen so you can grab the popsicle.
Enjoy!

#FoodieFriday

Check out the video below for a visual of how to prepare this easy sweet dessert.

Banana Pancakes topped with Fried Apples (Gluten-Free)

I spend my Saturday mornings perfecting two things: the pancake or the omelet. I find myself creating different renditions of both. Each entree exciting a new burst of flavors in my mouth. I'm a foodie! I find joy in cooking a good healthy meal. I find joy in sharing with my readers what I did. It's in hopes that it will quench your taste buds and bring you joy as well.

Let's get started...

Ingredients:

• 1 granny smith apple
• 1/2  of a ripe banana
• 2 teaspoons of cinnamon
• 1 tablespoon of honey
• 1 large egg
• olive oil
• butter 

Fried Apples
1. Cut the skin off the granny smith apple and cut it into rectangle pieces.
2. Turn the stove to medium heat and add butter.
3. Add the apples and coat with the butter that has been melting.
4. Sprinkle with a teaspoon of cinnamon and lower the heat to low.
5. Stir occasionally for 10-15 minutes until you see that the apples are soft.

 

Banana Pancakes
1. In a bowl smash the ripe banana. Add in the teaspoon of cinnamon and 1/2 tablespoon of honey. mix it all together.
2. Add a large egg to the ingredients and continue mixing.
3. In another skillet, add four cap fulls of olive oil and turn to medium-high heat.

*Tip* The skillet needs to be hot when you add the pancake batter, but lower it so that the pancake will cook evenly and not burn.

4. Pour pancake batter into the skillet. Reduce heat to low-medium.

*Tip* When the pancake is ready to flip it should be able to slide around if you tilt the skillet.

5. Flip the pancake and increase heat to medium. After 1 minute reduce heat back to low- medium.

If this recipe was helpful, please let me know in the comments. Enjoy!

Flour-less Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Cookies (Gluten-Free)

Within the past year I cut out eating refined white flour. Initially I was saddened because that meant that I could no longer enjoy all of the delicious bread and sweets that I was use to eating. Turns out that I can still enjoy great desserts, but I just need to make a few modifications. It's healthier anyway, so I'm convinced that this way is much better than the products I was consuming before. 

So needless to say, I love when I find a tasty recipe that quenches my sweet tooth and does not interrupt my flour-free diet. I also love sharing with others great recipes, because it may be the tip that's needed at just the right time. 

Below is a step by step guide to how I make Flour-less Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Cookies. I'm sure you're wondering, 'how can you make a cookie without flour?' Well it's possible and I'll show you how to do it!

The ingredients:

• 1/2 cup of Natural Peanut Butter
• 3 tablespoons of honey
• 3 tablespoons of Enjoy Life Mini Chocolate Chips
• 1/2 teaspoon of vanilla extract
• 2 large eggs
• *Optional Flaxseed Oil

Supplies:

• Measuring cups
• Large bowl
• Non-stick Cooking Spray
• parchment paper
• baking pan/sheet

6-Steps to a Great Snack

1. Mix in a large bowl the peanut butter, flaxseed oil, honey, and vanilla extract.

2. After mixing ingredients well, add the two large eggs and continue to mix all of the ingredients together.

3. Add in the mini chocolate chips.

4. Preheat oven to 350 degrees.

5. Scoop out the mixture onto parchment paper. Scoop out based on the size of the cookie you would like to make.

* Make sure to spray the parchment paper with non stick cooking spray

6. Place the cookies in the oven to bake for 10-15 minutes. 

Check out the video below to watch me make these cookies.

 If you plan to try this recipe or have tried this recipe, please let me know in the comments. Also please share so that others can experience this sweet delicious treat! 

#foodiefriday

"Reflections" NaPoWriMo

It's Day #8 of NaPoWriMo. I started this poem with something more Easter-y in mind, but this is what came out. Bandages don't always allow wounds to heal... it only hides it for a while.

"Reflections"
By Jamie D.

Was it the way she wore her hair or the clothes she wore
I wanted to be her.
I pictured myself hanging out with her friends
And laughing at their jokes
When she made an “A”
It was like I had some personal achievement

Everything about her was perfect
Who looked like that in 3rd grade?
Every whispered rumor greeted her name
And I the recipient often wondered the truth behind it
Black girls hair couldn’t be that long
So she must be mixed
Her eyes kind of chinky
So she must be asian
She’s mighty light to be black
Only original white skin can look that flawless

Even in size we all failed in comparison
I still sporting an undershirt
and her growing out of a training bra

All my hopes to be like her
To be friends with her
Crashed and exploded
The first and consecutive times
She laughed
At me
Joked
On me

I loved every perfection that she graced
And like broken glass I shattered at how
incomplete and unfinished I was
She was polished and refined
How had my innocent admiration
Turned into a puddle of shame at my own face

I wanted to be her

The unspoken disconnection became real
I had transformed from being a vapor
in her presence
to being seen
and I hurt her eyes
I looked funny
I wasn't on her level.
but still I wanted to be her
Maybe if we traded places
she'd see the me
that I saw
or maybe we'd be equals

I wanted to be her.


-unfinished
(261 words)
8:51pm